Itching need for instant gratification in the creative field should die
03.01.2025 20:20
Hello, and happy new years everyone!; I hope all is well
I've set up my bucket list for this year, last year was pretty dissapointing, but i've learnt a lot. One of them was learning how todraw better, well, every year that goal is put on my list anyways. There's something I noticed with great guro artist and how they craft.;the greatest guro artists I look up to are the ones who knows what gentleness is, what kindness is In a sense. I suppose not kindness exactly, but intimacy and flesh, and love and desire. There is.. a hollow disingenous ring to some guro artist in the century, a pencil handled with hate and [erversion that I see arent enjoyable. a sense of violence that is just forthe sake of violence, pain for pain, murder for murder. I'm sure other people see that in my artworks too, espescially in my older ones, this disingenouity of someone who can't fully comprehend hostility because they dont know what hospitality is. "To know kindness is to know cruelty" a quote from a song, and such
It's quite mind-numbing and mind-gearing actually, it motivates me to know more how to handle gentleness and feelings. Yet i dont want to learn how to be kind just to be cruel; thats just performative. Between the jumbled up strings in my head, I do want to know how relationship between humans could be more through;y explored. Show how I am in how my characters interact without it being tasteless and for the stake of the stage. Even through what I write here I fear of sounding shallow and closed-off, nonetheless, I suppose for this year I want to learn how to be earnest, forever and ever...
May this year be fun for everyone