I can't wait to follow my usual schedule again....need schedule in my life. aimless freedom is hell
16.07.2024
This song is so good
11.06.2024
my phone LCD is broken at the moment, but i feel more at ease since now theres less distraction. listening to miku songs on repeat again ^3^
09.06.2024
20cm sakura pofutto
09.06.2024
Deimos is the easiest character to draw personally, sometimes my thoughts blend with him. so i draw him as me too, but it feels unfair =__= im not a ghostly short boy
05.06.2024
my relationship with art is strange, i get irritated and itchy whenever im held back from expressing myself for too long, like a drug withdrawal? well i wouldn't describe it like that since it's not something that changes my biology, but i wouldn;t know what to call it either way. ive been told to keep my thoughts to myself ever since i was a kid, so now the only way i wish people to decipher me is through visuals. "i can't be myse;f, if i don't tell, if i don't show, don't draw"... unsatisfaction with my works mean unsatisfaction with myself as a person, if my works seem fake, then i am too, if my works seem lifeless, then i am too. to draw forever, means to be myself forever... i only ever write in this blog, to talk about my relationship with art and this side of the wurld, i'll log mundane activities seperately
04.06.2024
i need to reconstruct the whole site
18.05.2024
when finishing an artwork, i tend to move on from the old piece to a new one. it'll stay on mind for a day or two, but after that i'll carry on with my life. audience and cakes eater will digest the artwork more throughly there. the preservation of digital media makes it accessible for people to look anytime, its scary like a lot of things are. i dont remember what i make yet itll be evident in people brains?!?!?!? i only plan on making meaningful pieces for myse;f
19.04.2024
07.04.2024
living is not a thing to be afraid of, live yourself to be 100 person at once. as long as you're aware what kindof person you are, as long as you acknowledge what kindof people surrounds you, you'll be fine.
04.04.2024
30.03.2024
made the blogland a complete seperate site now, its much better now. theres some things i liked from the old blogland, but this feels less cluttered. (09.06.24 edit: i lied i moved it back here. its troublesome to log out and log back in everytime theres a new log to be written.)
22.03.2024
i baked a couple days earlier. it came out well, it tasted well too, way better than my previous attempt shown in the picture, or the log before.
19.03.2024
i want to try experimenting with my works more, but havent gotten the time. satisfaction is not a thing i can reach nor anyone can fully-fully reach.. drawing is just second nature to me i never thought abt it too deply. well i do but, drawing is a form of communication to me atleast, rather than this concept of love and intimacy to the soul, its just as second nature to talking and communicating, however imnot a good communicator. its impulse driven sickness where i say what i want except when i say 'i say' its not saying its drawing. recently im having more self restraints and its making my "communication" worse persay. im not as impulsive, nor repulsive when it comes to drawing or talking. i wish i were, but SICKNESS is never eternal. it has hills..for now i will rest uninspired and plagued by ideas of birds. this time, i'm unable to depict this feeling into a picture
29.02.2024
the using of the words "vision", "miracle", and "nonsense" in the HERBI-COMIC section is influenced by a PinocchioP song. linguistics used here are influenced by everything i found sweet. everyone impacts everyone, ten people would die to be like you, ten people would rather die than to be like you, the world is made out of pancakes
17.02.2024
cookies made for valentines, suppose it's the memories that matters?
11.02.2024
my head is both fucked, and unfucked. who cares i have things to do?!
08.02.2024
often times i'm convinced i live a different life in the realms of my dreams. all of the dreams i had for the past few months are mundane, but memorable. i had a particular dream today that after i hung out at the mall, i watched a visual doccumentary video about the recent generations worsening attention span, the video was well-thought-out and edited carefully with good studies linked, but when i woke up, no video shows up exactly as how i remembered it in the dream. it's not an exciting dream, most of my dreams aren't, however it's something that goes along my realistic stream of activities
3.02.2024
greatly wiped the older logs, lalalalala~lately PinocchioP has carved a place in the mind again. his works has been with me throughut my worst and my brightest.